Straight Face

First time I saw you, 
I felt something. We barely talk.

First time I saw your sleepy face,
I like your messy hair. You smiled. I think you're cute. I stared at you while you smoking outside.

First time we hang out,
I followed them from behind.

First time you text me,
I love how you keep the conversation alive.


First time we met just the two of us,
I ate a burger and you want Barbican but they dont have it. Well I'm glad you came.


First time we're out on a date,
Paint hunting and KFC. Teased me with those screen grabs. I dont know how to react.

First time we went to watch a movie together,
In Time. Was fuckin cold then you hold my hand. Thank god its dark coz I'm blushed. 

First time you brought me to a gig,
I got the chance to meet your friends. I observed how you socialized. 


First time you made my heart pounding so hard,
I cant refuse it. I'm scared.


First time you ignoring me,
I'm clueless. I'm not lying but I guess I've been misunderstood. 


First time you broke my heart,
Only my best friend knows how I've been.


Well YOU. Thanks for every first time that we had. If only you know how much it hurts when you've been ignored by someone important to you. I dont know what else to do. I tried. And I keep trying to neutralize whats been happening between us but I dont think you like the idea. The more I waited the more I'm hurt. If only you would understands my reluctance. I dont know what I am to you now. Your face flooded in my memory; both in my mind and in my phone. Everyday I questioned myself should I keep it or should I clean them all. I keep wondering if my image still safely saved in your phone. Or at least, in your mind. I just dont know what to think. Sometimes I feel like giving up because we both know that we're wrong at the first place. We're never supposed to be like this. But who can ever deny FEELINGS? Well YOU, I'm willing to wait. But tell me is it worth the wait? Or you want me to let go. Tell me.