Am I dying ?

I dont wanna see doctor. I dont wanna know what's wrong with me. Because I'm scared. I'm scared of the fact that something might go wrong with my body. My health. Maybe I should just need to be calmed whenever I got the attacks. Breathing difficulties. Never ending coughs. I should pray that my lungs be good to me. I hate that feeling. I hate that taste. It taste like blood but I will never try to spit 'em just to find out whether its blood or what. I wont. I'm too scared. "Please see the doctor" So tell me, for what? Another prescription? Well recently the doctor said that my anti-body were too weak that I cant simply take pills. They might be too strong that my body cant handle which then leads to harmful effects. Now, how? Do I still need to see those doctors? And what's next? Ohhh yeah my digestive system also being too sensitive. Just eating meat could caused me internal bleeding. What's that? I shat blood! So explain to me how shouldn't I freak out. They're too much that I dont have the guts to give a fuck about it. Be calm and acting natural. I'm okay. Now, who wants to marry me, raise your hand! Yeahh no one. Coz I'm one hell of trouble.