Enough is enough. Right?

Dear blog...I know I've been such  bad blogger. I've been ignoring you all this while. You must been thinking that I'm just using you. I came every time I was sad. I came every time I was angry. I came every time I was heart broken. But yet you still loyal to me. You're a good friend Mr. Blog. I wish my lover would be just like you. Never complaint. You're right again Mr. Blog. I come again now. Heart broken. And now I think there would be no chance for us to stay in love anymore. He just....changed. Maybe its time to say enough is enough. I won't  turn back. That's it. We're done. And you and me can always be together. Like before.

Somehow there still chances for me to stay happy. I have lots of lovely people who chilling me up. I won't cry anymore. I won't lock myself in a room for days anymore. Coz I know its not worth it. Its not that every thing would be okay. I can live without you, love. You don't know how much I wanted us to stay best friends. But I dont think you like that idea. Hatred. That's all you think right? Nevermind...I have my own chill pill now. I can live without you. I can live without you. I can live without you. Okayy....Now. Its funny when every thing seem to look like coincident. I lose one, other two come. At least I don't have to cry all day long coz I have them! 

Stop wishing for something that wont happen.

I've been away for like almost a month I guess. I'm a bad bad blogger. Aku bukan taknak update blog ni. It's just that I was too busy with my life right now. Not really actually but I was just not into blogging for quite some time. My heart was really in pain that I dont know how to explain. I've always been in a bad mood and I dont want to do anything. I mean ANYTHING! It's like that I'm bored with my life now. It's so dull and I haven't had fun for a long long time. I cant remember when the last time I laugh so hard that my face hurts. Hmmmmmm.....
Nowadays I've been always thinking that why girls always get matured so damn fast compared to boys. Why???? It's so frustrating when the girls have something in mind for example, starts a business or wanting to get engaged or what so ever, the boys always seem to find it too hard to do lah its too soon lah not ready lahh blablablaa....WTF? It's just soooooo fuckin' frustrating to see how narrow minded they've been all this while. They dont have the balls to take risks and more prefer to follow the flow. What a coward shit??! Okay my boiling point has reach the limit I guess. I dont know what my endings. Will I be happy? Am I with the right person? Fuck this is heavy! Or is it me that think too much shit?