WHY

Well recently I kinda involving myself with something that I would say complicated. Yeah I'm tired figuring out. It's just that I cant seem to resist the vibe, but somehow, if I allow it to myself then it's gonna be yeah;complicated. I am now might losing the main reason of this entry. hahaha. But the bottom line is I am in a very confused state of mind. The question of should or should not. No matter how strong the rush of allowing you to invade my heart, I can never be too strong to hold a knife and stab that back. But I know I cant resist your existence. Your image spreading in my veins. Every time those voice speaks, my heart pounding so hard. Pardon friends if I always caught smiling to my blackberry. There is one person in there being the reason to smile. And please checking up my phone now will be totally no no. Especially you. Because I think I'm stealing something from you. That's the secret I can never tell. I'm feeling guilty. I'm suffocated with this guilt. WHY? Bety you shouldn't be too confident about your feelings towards people. Those feelings might change. Those stupid crush you assumed might infect every inch of your heart until there's no way to stop them. And now you lose. You got trapped in your own game. It's an insane situation when a USER being in love with the PLAYER.