Separated soul and body

How will you live your life being somebody that you are not? The only question I keep asking myself when someone important wants to change me. The question of should or should not. The question of why cant they just accept me for who I am. Maybe the change might be good on me. Some times people sees me as a cold, short tempered, annoying person who uses profanities as her second language. Someone with an ego of a mountain and an emotions of a burning sea. Well, maybe I am that kind of person. Often I warned the people who approaches me to be aware of what kind of beast I'm feeding inside me. But often, they said its okay. Everyone has their own limit I guess and "that's okay" may not suites the situation anymore. Should I trust those "that's okay" again? I think not. Why? Coz it ruined my life every time. I keep waking up from dying. I've healed my soul and heart for thousand times. And I let it broke as I'm watching. If only you could see the beauty in the ugly. If only you could wait. All I can guarantee is that who I am today now, will gonna be a complete different person when I'm finally can be called as a wife. Hard to believe that? Well you have to be the right person who strives and deserve to see that change. If you cant deal with it, then you're not even qualified.